"No, she didn't bring out the worst in me. I... I wanted to hurt her. To trap her the same way I'd been trapped." Lapis herself sags despite the touch, even despite it being a little reassuring. "She came back to me after we split, you know. She asked me to fuse again." Her voice is muffled by her knees now, quiet. "If Steven hadn't been there... I would have said yes. I know I would have."

It's not Jasper who was the bad one of their... relationship. It was her. And yet, for some unknown reason, Steven had defended her, and now Lars was too. She doesn't understand it.

"I- I wanted to fuse with you too. That's what makes it even worse. I wanted to feel what it would be like."